MIA!

I have been missing in action for a long time! After my last BFN on my day three ultrasound I found out that I had a very large ovarian cyst that has to go away before we can try again. I was so emotionally and physically exhausted that I totally quit going to any TTC websites.

I feel so much better after detoxing from all of the fertility drugs and we are foster care and adoption. I am concentrating on losing the weight that I have gained while taking the meds for the last seven months.

I still love reading every one's blogs and keeping up with the little ones that are growing like weeds.

Big Fat Negative!!

I really thought this was going to be my month but I tested and it was BFN. Today is 15 days past insemination and AF hasn't showed but I'm thinking that is from the Prometrium. My boobs are so sore that I can barely lay down (very unusual for me) so I don't know what is up with that? I read that sore ta ta's are a side effect of the med but I would have thought that it would have began when I started the meds not 10 days later.

For those of you have used progesterone support after the IUI. What dose did you take? Is there another option? I have been taking 200 mg three times per day. This stuff makes me in such a horrible mood, irritable, bloated, crampy and I just feel like shit. Oh did I mention the weight gain?

Scared to test

Usually I'm POAS (pee on a stick) nut during the two week wait but this month I'm scared to test. I just don't want to see a negative test, I have myself prepared for it but I just not ready yet. Gary is out of town this weekend at National Guard drills and I'm sure he was hoping that I tested while he was gone so I would have time to deal with with a negative. He is very supportive of me but he hates to see me such an emotional wreck knowing there isn't anything he can do to speed up this process. This month has been the hardest of them all with adding in Follistim and the Prometrium. I really don't think the Follistim had any negative effects on me but the Prometrium has been wicked! If AF doesn't show up by Tuesday I will take a test.

The Wait Continues

I'm so excited! Today I got a job interview for a position as a workforce services specialist for the state. It entails working with businesses requiring employment assistance, staffing job fairs, administering testing and assessments and screening applications for area businesses. Before taking the position that I have now in the oilfield chemical sales industry I worked as a case manager for individuals with mental retardation and and developmental disabilities. I really liked my position but the pay and benefits were poor with no room for advancement so I thought moving on to a corporate job was the answer. I think the position that I'm interviewing for will be better suited to my need to interact with people and make a difference in someones life. The interview is Friday the 13th....it's going to be my lucky day!

On the trying to conceive front in just waiting, and waiting and waiting some more. I'm 11 days past IUI and I'm having major PMS symptoms, bitchiness, sore boobs, cramps and tiredness but AF is not due to show until next week. I have not been sleeping well at all and that is with taking Ambien. Taking the Prometrium three times per day sucks! It's messy and makes me so tired. Can I blame my irritability on the Prometrium? Does it mess with AF showing on her own while taking it?

4 Days past IUI & hate my job

I'm four days past IUI. With all of modern technology why can't they come up with a home pregnancy test that shows +/- immediately? The two week wait kills me. I'm taking Prometrium (vaginally) three times per day and it's so yucky! It's messy and makes me so tired that I'm falling asleep by 8:00 p.m.


This week has been horrible, my supervisor is the worst person I have ever worked with. She is truly an evil woman who does not respect anyone in the office. She will do whatever it takes to make herself shine to the boss. In my eyes a supervisor should be a mentor and and an advocate for the team. I share an office with 2 other women and it's a central gathering place for all of the sales reps to gather as that is where the file are stored, fax machine, shredder, and mail boxes for all of the district employees. In this office there are three desks and mine is facing a wall with my back to the other two desk and my back is to anyone else who might be in the office. So as you can imagine it is like Grand Central Station all day long. Yesterday the she told me that I'm no longer allowed to turn around to see who is behind me and I'm not allowed to talk to anyone that is in the office. WTF? I work from 6:30 a.m. until 5:00 p.m. and not to talk to anyone all day long is absolute torture. My "super" has worked there three days longer than I have and these have been the longest 11 months of my life. I have learned a valuable life lesson that money does not equal happiness. I'm in search of a new job but with the economy picking are pretty slim. I will keep you updated!

Two awesome books!

For women struggling with fertility, motherhood can seem "as far away as the moon and just as hard to reach," to quote the yoga instructor authors. Quinn and Elisabeth Heller have both taken their own fertility journeys, and they made it their mission to pass along their experience using yoga to "pull down the moon." They, along with the input of acupuncturist Jeanie Lee Bussell, outline a 12-week program based on the idea of integrative care for fertility, or ICF. The program includes advice on diet, exercise, sleep, relaxation, and other aspects of life that impact fertility. Each chapter provides an activity for the week designed to introduce various yoga postures or other mind/body/spirit recommendations like journaling. The photographs and personal stories from women trying to conceive make the book accessible and easy to follow even for those who are not familiar with yoga. Likely to find an audience among women who are open to the mystical and spiritual nature of yoga, acupuncture, meditation, and prayer; suitable for public libraries that cater to that crowd.

Insight and frank, friendly advice on overcoming infertility -- from two women who have lived through it all. We are bombarded by images of blissful older mothers, such as Madonna and Celine Dion. But 'Hollywood' articles about pregnancy and fertility at middle age gloss over the tremendous amount of financial, emotional, and physical effort faced by couples struggling to conceive. In this warm, funny, empathetic book, journalist Julie Vargo and literary agent Maureen Regan -- women who have experienced personally almost every aspect of infertility -- give readers a glimpse into what to expect when you're not expecting. Hormones, sperm counts -- nothing is too personal for these two outspoken women! Ranges from technical to humorous and everything in between. What are good, snappy comebacks to the question, 'Why aren't you pregnant?' What is the difference between gonadotrophin releasing hormone and progesterone? Should you freeze your eggs? These questions and many more are answered, and in the tone of a couple of good friends. Between them, the authors have gone through hormone treatments, miscarriages and multiple inseminations -- so they know firsthand the rollercoaster ride of trying to achieve pregnancy. With wise advice on how to communicate with doctors, husbands, friends, and mothers, this book is an invaluable guide for all women facing infertility.

Insemination Day

Last Friday I had a follies check and I had 8 follies …Yikes! I guess that means that the Femara and Follistim combo worked? Actually only four of the eight will be large enough to produce a mature egg.
#1-9.30
#2-13.27
#3-10.18
#4-13.44
#5-14.8
#6-8.3
#7-8.3
#8-20.3

Saturday night I gave myself the HCG injection and this morning I had my sixth insemination with #38. The procedure didn't got nearly as smoothly as the previous IUI's and it was much more uncomfotable, almost painful. I'm having some cramping and spotting but I will survive.

I start the Prometrium tomorrow. I have not idea what to expect taking medication vaginally. I have to continue taking it 3 times per day until AF shows or a negative pregnancy test on February 10th. The two week wait kills me!