Scared to test

Usually I'm POAS (pee on a stick) nut during the two week wait but this month I'm scared to test. I just don't want to see a negative test, I have myself prepared for it but I just not ready yet. Gary is out of town this weekend at National Guard drills and I'm sure he was hoping that I tested while he was gone so I would have time to deal with with a negative. He is very supportive of me but he hates to see me such an emotional wreck knowing there isn't anything he can do to speed up this process. This month has been the hardest of them all with adding in Follistim and the Prometrium. I really don't think the Follistim had any negative effects on me but the Prometrium has been wicked! If AF doesn't show up by Tuesday I will take a test.